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I keep having nightmares every time I close my eyes. I haven’t had a proper night of sleep since Wednesday, my eyebags are huge and dark. I keep waking up so many times, scared, emtpy, defeated, crying. Little nightmares of anything unrelated to what happened. Big nightmares of everything that happened. It’s always the worst… Continue reading

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Home?

I’ve tried so hard to be happy here. I’ve been in Ottawa for almost 7 full years now, and it still doesn’t feel like home. I’ve moved every single year; I haven’t had a permanent home, the only one being 9 hours away in New-Brunswick. I’ve had so many different roommates; often strangers, but the… Continue reading Home?

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Everything hurts. My body hurts, i can barely move. Im so weak. I cant. I cant do anything right. Im terrified. Im so scared. I cant sleep. Its just in and out. Falling asleep crying. Waking up crying. Nightmares. Questions. So many questions. Help me