I don’t believe in love anymore. I’ve been let down so many times, that I’ve lost all hope of loving or being loved by someone other than my family. I give up.
I keep having nightmares every time I close my eyes. I haven’t had a proper night of sleep since Wednesday, my eyebags are huge and dark. I keep waking up so many times, scared, emtpy, defeated, crying. Little nightmares of anything unrelated to what happened. Big nightmares of everything that happened. It’s always the worst… Continue reading
I’ve tried so hard to be happy here. I’ve been in Ottawa for almost 7 full years now, and it still doesn’t feel like home. I’ve moved every single year; I haven’t had a permanent home, the only one being 9 hours away in New-Brunswick. I’ve had so many different roommates; often strangers, but the… Continue reading Home?
Everything hurts. My body hurts, i can barely move. Im so weak. I cant. I cant do anything right. Im terrified. Im so scared. I cant sleep. Its just in and out. Falling asleep crying. Waking up crying. Nightmares. Questions. So many questions. Help me
Why is it so easy for people to lie? Why is it so easy for me to believe these lies? My boyfriend told me yesterday that he has stopped loving me. He’s been feeling this way for about 2 weeks now. I did not see it coming, because during those 2 weeks, he kept telling… Continue reading Why do people lie?
I just want to be normal. I’m sick of this roller coaster. I don’t want to be me. I don’t want to be what I am. I hate myself so much.