I keep having nightmares every time I close my eyes. I haven’t had a proper night of sleep since Wednesday, my eyebags are huge and dark. I keep waking up so many times, scared, emtpy, defeated, crying. Little nightmares of anything unrelated to what happened. Big nightmares of everything that happened. It’s always the worst part of this and I know it’s only the beginning. I can’t do this. I don’t want to go through this again.