There are these two songs. Last time we took time apart he told me he had this one song that he kept listening to. Last time we met we talked about songs at work, and how he realized how they’re all about love. I’m hoping that they make him think of me every time he hears them. I have two songs I keep listening to, or keep their lyrics in my head. “Lay Me Down” by Sam Smith and “Drops of Jupiter” by Train. Both so meaningful right now. Wanting to be with him but without being able to. About him finding himself and coming back. Me waiting and just wanting to be there next to him. Why is it so hard? I know why. It’s because even though he disagrees, he’s so much more than just good enough. Because “everything means nothing if I ain’t got you”. He made me a better person everyday, I was able to defeat my demon with him by my side. I can do anything with him by my side. I’m powerful on my own, but together we’re a force to reckon with.
Yes I do, I believe
That one day I will be, where I was
Right there, right next to you
And it’s hard, the days just seem so dark
The moon, and the stars, are nothing without you
Your touch, your skin, where do I begin?
No words can explain, the way I’m missing you
Deny this emptiness, this hole that I’m inside
These tears, they tell their own story
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the milky way
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there