You knew what it meant. When you said “If we sleep together, it means that it’s guaranteed that I will come back”, I said “no, I come in a package, I don’t sleep around anymore”. I had told you beforehand that when I was sleeping around before I met you, it made me hate myself,… Continue reading Vulnerable
It’s been a week. I want to give up, i want you so bad right now, to hold me and never let go. I had my first nightmare. In it, you were telling me how I wasn’t on your mind, how like 3 girls had already messaged you and wanted to sleep with you. And… Continue reading A week.
I have to let you go for you to come back. I am letting you go because I want you to come back. Because I know we are meant to be. You saw me almost 2 years ago at the cinema and asked our friend who I was, you needed to know who I was.… Continue reading Let go
Not being with you hurts so much more. Im left with all this love to give, and this huge hole in my chest where my heart should be. All the love is spilling out into my hands. No one to help me pick it all up. It’s just spilling out until i dont have anything… Continue reading Hole
I don’t believe in love anymore. I’ve been let down so many times, that I’ve lost all hope of loving or being loved by someone other than my family. I give up.
I keep having nightmares every time I close my eyes. I haven’t had a proper night of sleep since Wednesday, my eyebags are huge and dark. I keep waking up so many times, scared, emtpy, defeated, crying. Little nightmares of anything unrelated to what happened. Big nightmares of everything that happened. It’s always the worst… Continue reading